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Lately, i realised that time really flies! In life, most people have goals, targets to meet, expectations, hopes, dreams. I really admire those who set and achieve them with great perseverance and hard work. Maybe bcos im not that kind of person..in fact, i’ve not achieved anything great in particular. But dont get me wrong, i am contented with my simple and little-stress life. Growing up is really scarry, I wish that i can stay in my comfort zone and shelter from parents forever but it will be selfish to do that.

A text from a friend made me realised what she said is true; that we ask so many things from God yet we are not thankful..which leads me to my next thought..what do i really want in life? Sadly, the answer is i dont know..seeing how my friends progress so fast in life really scares me..of cos im happy for their achievements, when their dreams are realised, but it made me feel really scared and i feel like running away…my heart feels troubled, suddenly i have the urge of running to a far far away place… dats what i do whenever im scared but where can i run to this time round?

Seeing children snuggling up to their parents makes me smile, simple greetings and smiles makes my heart glad, seeing pictures of family and friends warms my heart, hearing people call my name makes me feel alive…As i pass by the beautiful sceneries of scotland, i feel comforted, amazed by the beauty of nature, by God’s amazing creations, by the peacefulness of a country life. i can spend hoursssss gazing at the clouds moving gracefully in the sky, reminding me that everything is moving, and i too have to keep moving..what if i were to die today, will i regret how i spent my life? will i be remembered forever? has the world become a better place because of my existence? where do i go from there? what is life afterall, a mere existence of ur lifetime spent on earth searching for the meaning and purpose of ur existence? Surely there must be something more to life..christians will argue that and that’s when God comes into the picture, our purpose in life, who we meet and impact in our lives, etc etc but what if life is just about living, about enjoying this time given to us, and when the time is up, thats when the movie ends…everything including life itself is vanity..eeyore from winnie the pooh would say life is pathetic, my mum will say who says life isnt tough? my pastor will say everyone has a purpose in this life, forrest gump would say life is like a box of chocolate, you never know what you gonna get, what will you say?

Nevertheless, I am grateful for everything, for being blessed with loving grandparents, wonderful parents and lovely sibblings, for the precious friendships that i’ve gained thruout the years, for being able to love, hope and give, for the dreams that have come to pass and those that im waiting patiently for them to unfold, for the opportunities to experience the world, and for being alive…this is my life!

One starry nite, I hailed a cab from Nicholson St back to my flat. As usual, on the way back, i will fiddle about with my iphone! So this time round, I was just browsing through some of my family photos in my iphone…seing those smiley faces on the photos made me smile instantly, reminiscing those happy moments back at home.. ^_______^

Then i glanced at the taxi fare..shucks, its more than the usual fare that i pay..in my mind i was conversing with the taxi driver.."cant you go any slower than this??" sighh…anyway, im reaching my flat soon and suddenly i was reminded to put my iphone back in my bag as i might lose it..but stubbornly, i just ignored the thought.. In a few min, the taxi arrived in front of my flat, so i paid the money and went back to my flat.

Once i was in my room, i dipped my hand in my coat pocket to pull out my iphone and throw it on the bed (as i usually do) and to my horror of horror, its not there!! so i searched frantically..in my bag, pockets, coat, everywhere and nope..nothing!!! dashed out of the door, opened the main gate, hoping the driver is still there but sadly he has left….

Immediately, floods of regrets washed over me..i shd have kept my iphone b4 i left the taxi!! i shd have n0t played with my iphone while in taxi or bus! Next thing i did was called jo and told her my iphone was lost! she suggested to keep calling my number which i did for umpteen times but no one answered the phone.. eventually, i gave up! oh well..i’ve lost another thing Again..sighhh…

While i was preparing to go to sleep, suddenly the flat phone rang!! and..it was the taxi driver!!! he said i had left my phone in his taxi, he heard something ringing but didnt know what it was until another passenger board his taxi and told him that someone has left an iphone..he then apologised for taking so long to call me back coz he didnt know how to operate my iphone! and he was on his way to my flat (2min!!)

After hanging up the phone, i ran all the way down, didnt even bother to wear my coat on that rainy nite, waiting anxiously for the taxi driver!! Soaked in the winter rain, i was absolutely freezing but i didnt care, all i can think of is my iphone!! Then the taxi came and i just couldnt stop thanking him! i didnt know wat else to say…and i was dying to get back to my warm flat..so i took his name, Steven taxi company: COMCAB and taxi plate no: S190 ASF promising to myself that i will repay his kindness tomorrow! He was really nice, he just smiled when i said thank you and he really look like a very nice guy (even tho i had forgotten how he look like now…)

Yayyyy…thank God, i’ve got my iphone back!! Its not really the phone that i cared about, its the family photos i’ve taken with the phone and the cheap blue swarovski crystals that my sis has carefully decorated my iphone with..oh, and the cute pigglet iphone cover which my sis brought me to make…even if i get a new iphone, it wont be the same as my precious iphone!

The next day, i called up the taxi co, but was unable to track the taxi driver, so they suggested to call edinburgh police station, which i did but unable to help as well..so i called up edinburgh city council but again, nothing…i want to thank the kind taxi driver in person, buy him a gift or voucher, anything just to say a proper thank you! but sadly..im not able to do that..sigh..hopefully i will meet him again one day!

Through this incident, i learnt to treasure my things!!! i realised how much i love my iphone!!! and most importantly, im grateful for the kindness that the taxi driver has shown me..i thought to myself..if i ever find an unlocked iphone, i will think a MILLION times, or even a ZILLION times before my guilt conscience eat me up and i decide to return it back to the rightful owner…..but this nice, kind and honest taxi driver (and not forgetting the passenger too) just returned it right away without expecting anything in return…his kindness and honestly has deeply touched my heart and for the rest of my life, i will never forget his random act of kindness…as im not able to repay his kindness, the only thing i can do is to be kind to other Scottish or even other people just to spread a little kindness and hopefully, one day, he will receive the same kindness that he has shown to me…as the saying "what goes around comes around"…

If you are ever in Edinburgh and board a taxi, remember to ask the taxi driver name and if it happens to be the nice taxi driver that i know, please say thank you to him and try to be nice to everyone..cos a little random act of kindness will add color to this world that we are living in! ^_________^

Wherever you are Steven the nice taxi driver, THANK YOU soooo much!! i will remember your kindness for as long as I live and hopefully, i will meet you again one fine day..^________^

“We think sometimes that poverty is only being hungry, naked and homeless. The poverty of being unwanted, unloved and uncared for is the greatest poverty. We must start in our own homes to remedy this kind of poverty.” Mother Teresa

I am born to change the world.

Our Greatest Fear

It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous,
talented and fabulous?

Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small does not serve the world.
There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other
people won’t feel insecure around you.

We were born to make manifest the glory of
God that is within us.

It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine,
we unconsciously give other people
permission to do the same.

As we are liberated from our own fear,
Our presence automatically liberates others.

-Marianne Williamson